Today is the second day of Ramadhan so, Ramadhan Kareem!! <333 p="">
A lot of things have happened since my last update.
1) I actually quit working at Hanis (16/3) and started working at CBTL (11/5).
From here, I realized this quote:
Since I started pre-u, I've always wanted to work at cbtl cause it's "cool" being a barista and what not so when I was rejected for the first time, I was quite heart-broken but then, I got a job at Hanis. Hanis at first was not what I had imagined as my first job. The people were not friendly and I felt left out cause everyone was talking chinese. However, after much crying for the first two weeks (Namy can testify this), I started becoming comfortable. There, many memories were made and I like it as my first job. Like everyone was actually friendly and ugh, just talking about them now makes me miss them sooo very much. I do acknowledge that I felt overworked but I guess it was my own fault cause I want to finish my duties very responsibly whatsoever. The reason I quit was cause of uni applications and stuff huhu
Then, I started working at cbtl. Cbtl was in my case expectation vs reality. I expect it to be rainbow and unicorn but reality is not like that. I hated work at that point onwards. I couldn't even point a finger why I hated it so much but I just do. That's the reason I quit after one month of working (11/6).
What about the quote right?
Hanis was like Allah's reply to my prayers: I have a better plan for you; since I've always wanted cbtl and also his reply of: yes, but not now.
Hanis >>>>> CBTL ((I would totally recommend people to work at Hanis cause I love it so very much heh))
Also, I've learnt from my mistake that Allah IS the best planner and we, as humans should never disregard that fact.
2. U N I V E R S I T Y
I am applying, appealing and waiting for any uni to take me in. My results were not really good, okay just bad and that must be the reason that the local uni have been rejecting me but let's put my trust in Allah and keep appealing hehe.
Also, I applied to IIUM. I haven't recieved any reply yet cause the closing date was on the 15th but hopefully I got accepted. Last night, Kak Ika is just too sweet and she told me of a uni in JB on business which has a link? bond? to Victoria University. Hmm, as appealing as it sounds. I still need to ask mama about it but it seems good. It's in JB so can go home very week!! Lol
But, let's keep praying that I do at least get into uni cause I was actually quite depressed in getting rejected allll the timeee.
3. My mood?
Ever since my cbtl work, I find my mood decreasing and getting rejected from unis might be a reason to it as well. My mood is literally all over the place. I find myself not wanting to socialize be it physically or virtually. Zahra and Namy both pointed out my lack of enthusiasm I guess? in our convo. I don't really know what but both of them said I sounded different not really Lina.
Kak El told me in a tweet that I was "sunshine Lina" and that made me thinking if I was really a cheerful, happy-go-lucky kid. Am I? Really? Or was I?
I guess that's the end of my ranting? Tbh, I wanted to rant about my lack of love life slash one-sided love or whatever but I should stop right? Like really? Move on and stuff. I know he won't be reading this but I actually pluck up my courage and added him on instagram so we're both liking each others pictures and all but still awkwardddd to think about it. Anddd, idk. I don't know what to say about this one-sided relationship. Aren't I over you already??? Aigoooo.
Let me end this longgg post with this quote from you;
When two hearts race, they both win.
